my personal +100 reasons to be grateful

I was to much anchored for a while in the rush of daily life and reality, and somehow I lost mu self, and the joy that comes within..I really don't know what happened, I guess is just one of those phases you need to go through to get back on your feet again.I has trying to explain how I feel, yesterday night, and I came up with this exhaustive drawing of my being...:)

I feel like something empty, like I am very conscious of all wonderful things that surround me, but they can not come in, cause there is a thick layer that "protects" me...I don't feel any anger, any pain, I just don't feel anything...My friend told me that all the thick layers are made of all my former beliefs that went in the unconscious, and fight to be recognized. All the beliefs that I had from the past - that I am not good enough, life is a struggle, love ends like it happened to my parents, being abundant is impossible, people are selfish ... They have a conflict with the new me, and the new things I believe about life...It's like a freaking war going on.

But this is good. This means I am progressing, I am changing ans welcoming change in my life...Anyway, my friend suggest me to write 100 reasons for what I am gratefully today. I believe some of you may need to do that also, therefore I am offering you an incentive to do so...

I am extremely grateful for:

1. my professional path, activity, and the work I do everyday in a less conventional, multinational and non-governmental environment, where people recognize my capacities;
2. friends I have to support and offer me and advice and example to deal in life, whenever I need it;
3. my improved relation and positive environment with my family, with all of them, and it feels to good having done with the adolescent phase in my life;
4. my special relation, beyond physical and normal layers of love, that I have with my lover;
5. the one week trip that I am going to have in April in 3 lovely cities of Georgia;
6. the beautiful yellow rose I received yesterday, that I am looking right now;
7. the immense freedom I have to express my beliefs, to chose my thoughts and the freedom I have to dream and think in positive attitude;
8. my health and that all small problems I have can be overcome easily, in a short time;
9. all the wonderful paces I visited in this life, and all wonderful places I will travel to, while uncovering my self;
10. for going to see Othello opera play tonight;
11. for all the money I make, for all the thinks I buy with them and for the fact that they bring me simple happiness and joy;
12. for uncovering my creative talent and having the courage to start something unconventional I believe is going to take me somewhere far – designing hand made brooches;
13. For all the thousands books I have red and will read in the future, and all the lives I’ve lived through them;
14. for the beautiful city I live in and for the sea;
15. for my new sweet blue 14 inch sony vayo laptop;
16. for my crazy cat, that always makes me smile – she doesn’t know that;
17. my child-hood friend, for being next to me for the last 15 years and for trying to understand me and my changes, for being honest and for loving me;
18. for being part of a wonderful group of people with spiritual interests where I can meditate every Friday;
19. for all the nice, coloured and beautiful feminine clothes I have in my full closet;
20. for going early to work every day, so that I can see the beautiful sunrise, coming out of the sea;
21. for having a lot of people I know from past experiences;
22. for my looks, for my hands and my beautiful hair;
23. for the fact that I am left-handed and that I think faster than other people;
24. I am grateful for my ambition that helped me go through many things in life and got me here;
25. for being able to talk well in English;
26. I am grateful for my good-looking, smart, sensitive and intuitive lover;
27. I am grateful for the nice relation I have with my boyfriend’s mother and for the fact that she loves me like I am her own daughter;
28. I am grateful for the fact that my mother takes care of me, she washes, irons, cleans my room and makes my dinner;
29. I am grateful for being able to work with young children and for giving me energy and more mature understanding on life;
30. I am grateful for private health insurance, that is so much flexible;
31. I am grateful for the flexible program I have at work and for being able to have other independent, money- generating activities;
32. For all long-distance friends I have;
33. For my elegant swatch;
34. For all my perfumes;
35. I am grateful for having an active social life, a busy professional-leisure-love schedule.

Damn, it’s hard to find 100 reasons…and I don’t want to starting counting my sexy underwear, or all small things I have that make my happy. It’s just life that makes me so grateful…

This step leads to another

I found my self drifting away in the thoughts of to what extend am I so different from you, from others...I may be extremely different, but still I am a part of you, as you are a part of all human kind. Also, I believe that we are witnessing a rise of perception and emotional intelligence and spirituality of the entire humanity. I don't know if it's about end of the world predictions and influences, or it is just the expected evolution of civilizations...I may be just someone willing to look at it and honour it in silence.

I managed to understand how the general known politic strategy - small steps philosophy - can actually influence and give more energy and meaning to my life. For some time I found it very difficult to live the present, just be, in every minute of the life. Facts make you want some things to never end, and some to pass away quickly. Also, the desire to be perfect and make things perfect gets you think more about your actions, and results, and how would it be, and...Often, to much energy is spend to rationalize actions, before they actually become one. But every dream may become real by choosing to act, by changing something so that it becomes visible for you.

The general tendencies to wait, to think of whatever you are dealing with, to stay for a while in the dark, are basicly the result of lack of confidence. He who has frustrations and hesitates a lot has his intuition cancelled by his own power. The issue of intuition has interested me a lot lately. I think intuition is the direct channel to you inner, powerful you, and it is always right, it can predict the future and always send you relevant signs to consider.Intuition is different than a general worry or negative belief, and your body will always show you that, directly in the region of the heart (spiritualists would say in the heart chakra). I am sure you had moment in life when you believed something will happen, or when observed some important thing, and the feeling was perfectly confident and sure of it self. It did not pose a threat, nor questions related to it's meaning, as it somehow seamed to be very clear.

I know that every small step is like an action bringing me closer to my vision on life. Waiting is not an option any more, while acting upon any given opportunity is the best symbol for my gratitude. This goes for learning, love, family, friends, money, profession. Whatever plan or action keeps showing up in your mind, just say yes to it and make it happen. I does not need to relate directly to your vision, but it is a small step leading with certainty to everything that is good for you.

You are what you eat

I feel I have been caring this permanent, life-going inner conflict between me and my personal life choices for so much time now...I am richer with insights and discoveries, I know so many things about how a life can be turned around, and still there is a great difference in order to actually apply the basics changes for life...

Life and what you make out of it is itself made of all simple things we chose to do every day. What you eat, how you care for your body, all the things you do to protect and love yourself are as equally important. Our body is like our temple, where energy flows more freely and generates positive actions and thoughts if it is protected and cherished. I don't believe in intelligence and life success in weaken and vicious bodies, I believe that out true peaceful and loving nature is created in a healthy condition, where energy has natural sources, where we truly connect with nature and demonstrate love for everything that is, firstly, material.

To love yourself means to offer you a life lived in health, to enable all natural processes and allow high-level energy to flow... Every time we do otherwise we chose to eat things that take our energy, we harm our body, we weaken our muscles and bones,or the organs with whatever bad habit we take (or a habit we are not able to build for ourselves). This is such a visible vicious circle we put ourselves in, and still neglect its long-term proofs and effects.

Why do people do that? Even when seeing it clearly? Why do people don't just change when they see the good in it? There could be a lot of social, political and mass scale life-style education arguments I could consider, but I do believe that we have the most important word to say when making decisions for ourselves. Only you can decide how to live your life. If you want to experience the powerful nature of your soul and materialize all great things in life, start with your temple. It will then make so much room for good thoughts and beautiful feelings, to make your life fantastic...

No wonder why the ancients were rather anchored in this reality principle...You maybe more familiar with the Latin expression - "Mens sana in corpore sano". Do not neglect your body if you wish your mind to work out all solutions and aspirations for you!